Nobody Will Remember Carl.mp3

00:00:00 There have been a few times in my life when and this is mostly, especially when I was younger or especially after a bad breakup where I would weigh the pros and cons of just staying single the rest of my life.
00:00:16 Yeah, this this is probably before, at least before.
00:00:19 I had heard of mid Tao.
00:00:20 I think it was before it was really.
00:00:21 Thing and nobody used to really say in cell, but there were several things that that were the same, like the behavior and the culture of many Western women and the propaganda reinforcing this behavior and this culture, this, this.
00:00:41 Propaganda that was promoting non reproductive lives to just try to be happy and be single.
00:00:50 Focus on if you're a man, video games and movies, you know the next comic book movie and for women it was, you know, be the cool wine and and just drink at bars and at wine bars and and screw random guys on birth control.
00:01:10 And so this kind of culture and the bloated divorce rate that we.
00:01:16 Saw the boomer.
00:01:17 Generation have, along with the the divorce laws that made, I mean where men were losing half their income.
00:01:25 Indefinitely because their wife cheated on them and then only being able to see their children.
00:01:30 Maybe you know, if they're lucky.
00:01:32 On the weekends, all this stuff, none of this stuff's new and it's kind of made marriage look like you're you're playing with a loaded gun. So I I remember thinking after one particular breakup. And, you know, it was a little rough.
00:01:45 And I just I I thought to myself, you know, it's not so.
00:01:48 Bad being single, just.
00:01:50 Think of all the extra money that I.
00:01:52 Would have you know.
00:01:53 I could put all this money into my hobbies.
00:01:55 I'm I'm kind of an introvert by nature, so a lot of my hobbies, they're just things that can be done by myself anyway.
00:02:02 You know, I used to.
00:02:03 Fix old pinball machines and old arcade machines, and even now now I fix old radios, but the the the truth of the matter is.
00:02:12 No matter what your hobby is, eventually.
00:02:16 You're going to get burned out on it.
00:02:18 That's just the way it is and once.
00:02:19 You have enough.
00:02:20 Free time to really just indulge.
00:02:23 Immerse yourself into this hobby, which is what?
00:02:25 I did after.
00:02:26 I after this break up I was just like.
00:02:28 You know what?
00:02:29 Screw it.
00:02:29 I'm not going to date anymore.
00:02:31 Or I'm just going to throw myself in into my hobbies and I'm going to be like this, this scholar hermit, where I'm going to, you know, to read all the books that I I never.
00:02:42 Wanted to read.
00:02:43 And and I I can write and I can, you know, fix pinball machines and and arcade machines and.
00:02:51 Screw up electronics or whatever, but The thing is.
00:02:54 It's it stops being fun and it starts to feel like a job.
00:02:58 It it's like, you know, it's like if all you could ever eat is your favorite food, eventually you'd start thinking about food you maybe didn't like so much, and maybe it's only so so.
00:03:08 But, but at least it's not freaking bacon again.
00:03:11 Not too much of a good.
00:03:12 Thing, it's very, very real.
00:03:16 Also, when I was younger, I used to play and obscene amount of video games.
00:03:21 I happen to know how much because it tracks that.
00:03:24 I'm not gonna say it's it's a lot, but.
00:03:27 I was I.
00:03:27 Was really good.
00:03:28 I was really good at first.
00:03:29 Person shooters. Really good, actually.
00:03:32 And I thought that playing.
00:03:35 First person shooters, usually high, would never get old, but it does.
00:03:41 It takes a while it takes.
00:03:43 A long while.
00:03:43 That's the problem is by the time it stops being fun, it like it really, you realize.
00:03:49 I wish it had been.
00:03:49 I wish I had stopped being fun.
00:03:51 Way before this moment, but eventually it gets old, just like everything else.
00:03:55 I also used to think that with with dating apps like Tinder, that yeah, it always be easy to have sex.
00:04:02 You know, if that's what I wanted, if I was lonely, or if I'd been playing, you know, some video games for, like, a few days straight or or whatever.
00:04:11 Fixing our arcade machine and and getting my Robotron on and you know, whatever.
00:04:16 I you know, I can just fire up 10.
00:04:19 And find someone and and just get a a quick single sized serving of of intimacy with a side of orgasm.
00:04:28 And that's true.
00:04:29 That's that's actually it's really not that hard if you have any kind of conscience at all, you feel bad because you realize that you've used someone and.
00:04:38 I don't know it's.
00:04:39 Just when you're younger, you can this sort of thing.
00:04:41 You can get over it.
00:04:42 Really quick and as you get.
00:04:43 Older it's just, especially as those numbers.
00:04:46 Those numbers pile up it just it it kind of just makes you feel like a disgusting human being.
00:04:51 So eventually playing that game, unless you're like a sociopath it it, it starts to get bad.
00:04:57 And then on top.
00:04:57 Of that, the women that you're able to get, it doesn't necessarily change significantly as you get older, but it changes.
00:05:06 Changes in some significant ways.
00:05:09 You know, I was talking to my friends once and this is when I was.
00:05:12 I wasn't just trying.
00:05:13 To hook up with women and there's.
00:05:14 Been very few times in my.
00:05:15 Life honestly, when, when that was my goal.
00:05:18 I I've I've often when I've been single, I have been looking for a girlfriend and.
00:05:23 And I was talking to a friend of mine and I said, you know.
00:05:25 It's kind of.
00:05:26 Like as you get older, it's like the bargain bin of DVD's in a Walmart.
00:05:34 At 4:00 AM.
00:05:36 If you've.
00:05:36 Found yourself in this situation.
00:05:38 You know what I'm talking about.
00:05:39 You just?
00:05:40 Yeah, nothing to do.
00:05:41 It's 4:00 AM.
00:05:42 You're in a Walmart for some.
00:05:43 Reason you just rummaging through some?
00:05:46 Giant bin of DVD's or you know, Blu-ray?
00:05:49 Now, every now that everything's VOD, this isn't going to make as much sense. But most people are.
00:05:54 Going to get where I'm coming from.
00:05:56 Every single one of the movies is like.
00:05:58 Either a movie you've seen.
00:06:01 Like a million times.
00:06:04 Or you don't want to see it like you never wanted to see it.
00:06:07 You knew about this.
00:06:08 Movie you were like, yeah.
00:06:11 You couldn't pay me.
00:06:13 Then watch this movie.
00:06:15 That's why it's in this bin for $2.00, and I wouldn't, you know, I'm not going to pay $2.00, and that's kind of how eventually these dating apps get it's like you see these women that you have to choose from and you're like, yeah, you know, seeing that one a million times and yeah, gosh, this one I, you know, I I keep hearing about it.
00:06:35 I have no interest whatsoever in experiencing that one is so.
00:06:40 Anyway, the reason I'm talking.
00:06:41 About all this.
00:06:43 I know there's a lot of people that are listening right now, especially around the holidays.
00:06:48 Maybe you're a little bit lonely because of this where you've kind of given up on having a family and you.
00:06:54 You've been through.
00:06:55 The dating meat grinder and you've come out so bruised and and bloodied up.
00:07:00 You're just a ******* mess and.
00:07:02 You've just decided.
00:07:03 To throw in the towel.
00:07:04 And I've been there. I I get it, I get it 100%, but I think there's something that a lot of people and and men specifically.
00:07:14 Really don't think about it.
00:07:16 You know, it's funny.
00:07:17 We think about it when it comes to.
00:07:19 Women like everyone.
00:07:20 Understands the image of the lonely cat lady.
00:07:23 The menopausal woman with whatever fur baby she's decided to channel her motherly instincts into while riding the **** carousel and never settling down because.
00:07:35 She either has impossible standards for her Prince Charming or her career, or both, and just ends up being this bitter and alone woman, which by the.
00:07:46 That is exactly what globalists want, because one of the ways these women treat their depression is just by buying products, by contributing to the economy.
00:07:57 And which, by the way, men do the same thing we're going to.
00:07:59 Talk about in.
00:08:00 A second now I think everyone listening knows women.
00:08:03 Like what?
00:08:04 I'm talking about.
00:08:05 You know women who will just end up alone, you know, maybe not at 1st.
00:08:08 At first she'll have her looks, her sex appeal, she'll be whined and dined by good looking and and generous men.
00:08:15 But eventually, as she ages.
00:08:18 She will slowly kind of.
00:08:20 Or, you know, at first it's the.
00:08:21 Cool wine Ant.
00:08:23 You know she.
00:08:23 Still goes to bars and and you know, maybe she doesn't get the same guys that she used to, you know, starts to to fall off a little bit.
00:08:31 You know, they're not.
00:08:32 It's not the same rich guys or, you know, good looking young guys, as it used to be.
00:08:37 But as long as she reasonably keeps herself up, she still.
00:08:41 Manages to get regular doses of throw away intimacy, but then eventually that that kind of dries up too.
00:08:49 You know these women.
00:08:50 That's why they they dive into these relationships with with cats and dogs.
00:08:55 Once they hit the wall, she now finds it's difficult to to even get, you know, a drunk guy at the bar to take her home because the bar is now full of all these you.
00:09:05 Know these newer.
00:09:06 Models, or maybe a lot of the men that, that.
00:09:08 Would have been at the bar.
00:09:10 Got tired of rejection and now they're home.
00:09:12 Playing video games.
00:09:14 Everyone knows women that that kind of fit this profile and.
00:09:17 You know a lot of.
00:09:18 Us have even been hurt by women like this.
00:09:20 So it it almost.
00:09:22 You might even give you joy to see.
00:09:24 These women like where they end up.
00:09:25 I think everyone likes to believe in Karma.
00:09:29 You know, I get it.
00:09:30 But what I think a lot of men fail to realize.
00:09:34 Is that for every woman like this, every cat lady with you know, a mediocre career and and no children, that there's a man living out the male version of this.
00:09:47 But it's something that a lot of men don't think about because just like being the cool one.
00:09:52 Tenant doesn't sound so bad to a lot of, you know, women that are starting to get closer to that age.
00:09:58 Yeah, it's self delusion, but the image of the cool wine Ant doesn't sound so bad, especially the way it's, you know, depicted in media.
00:10:07 Being the hermit scholar.
00:10:10 With enough money to play every video game you know and free time to play it the day it.
00:10:15 Comes out, you know, drive your dream car.
00:10:19 Have a nice house, maybe.
00:10:21 Brewed beer.
00:10:21 Or or whatever it is.
00:10:23 Yeah, that you want to have time and money to do.
00:10:26 That doesn't sound so bad to men.
00:10:29 And in fact, I think men, they have even less urgency.
00:10:34 Because, you know, they know.
00:10:36 Well, I can.
00:10:36 I can father children.
00:10:38 Well into my 80s.
00:10:40 So they delude themselves into thinking.
00:10:42 That, you know, women might.
00:10:43 Like you know, they're ****** at age 35.
00:10:46 But hell I can. I can start a family at 100, so there's no ticking clock, and obviously that's that's not realistic. But a lot of men, they don't feel that biological urgency.
00:10:59 With, in other words, for men that you can always think to.
00:11:02 There's still a chance, whereas.
00:11:05 With women, there comes a time where unless you put some eggs on ice or.
00:11:09 Something there really.
00:11:09 There's there's zero chance.
00:11:12 So there's no ticking clock that really drives home to men the urgency of the situation today. I kind of wanted to talk to you about a man who also thought that there was no ticking clock. He kept putting off having a family, he focused 100%.
00:11:31 As far as I can tell.
00:11:32 Honest hobbies.
00:11:34 And all those things that that men find annoying about women, that they think they will be totally free of, like, you know, the nagging, for instance, if they choose to stay single forever.
00:11:49 He was never bothered by any of that.
00:11:53 You see, there's a.
00:11:55 An old abandoned building that I'm clearing out.
00:11:59 It's been abandoned for a few years.
00:12:01 But before that, there was a man who never felt the urgency of this ticking clock, who lived there.
00:12:09 Well, Colin Karl.
00:12:12 Carl was into photography.
00:12:16 He worked as a computer programmer.
00:12:18 In the 80s and 90s.
00:12:21 He was a big movie buff.
00:12:24 And from what I can tell a.
00:12:26 Little bit of.
00:12:26 A **** addict.
00:12:27 And we'll get into.
00:12:29 How I know that in a little bit?
00:12:32 Carl made.
00:12:34 A decent amount of money.
00:12:37 He did OK with women.
00:12:40 But they always wanted so much of his time.
00:12:44 He thought he could never make it.
00:12:47 As a software engineer, he could never get his software company.
00:12:51 Off the ground, if he took the time away from his career.
00:12:57 And invested it with a woman.
00:12:59 He told himself and others.
00:13:02 You know.
00:13:03 I'll just put all my time into my software company because it doesn't really matter now.
00:13:09 I'm just I'm deferring gratification.
00:13:12 If I put all of my time.
00:13:14 Into making this software company big enough.
00:13:18 To be bought out by like Microsoft or something.
00:13:21 Then we'll have real money.
00:13:24 And then I can get the woman that I want.
00:13:27 I'll get this higher quality woman.
00:13:30 So it's OK that I don't have.
00:13:31 One now.
00:13:32 So he decided to just.
00:13:34 Pour himself.
00:13:36 Into his work.
00:13:38 And it wouldn't matter.
00:13:40 Because once his company made it big and he had lots of money, he would.
00:13:44 Get any woman he wanted.
00:13:45 And it might have worked.
00:13:49 You know, Carl was in his 40s.
00:13:52 Had almost built this company.
00:13:54 It was, it was profitable.
00:13:57 People were buying up software companies left and right.
00:14:02 You know a deal to sell his company.
00:14:05 To to someone like Microsoft, you know it, it was just around the corner, but.
00:14:10 Thenthe.com bubble burst.
00:14:15 And all of those offers dried up.
00:14:19 Not only that, no one wanted to lend.
00:14:20 Him money.
00:14:24 And eventually a larger company.
00:14:27 Started offering a very similar product.
00:14:31 And his company went belly up.
00:14:34 Carl would put his whole life into this.
00:14:37 All of his money, everything into this.
00:14:41 He didn't really have a Plan B, so one of one of the double edged swords.
00:14:46 Of being single, a single man, especially if you're smart and you're capable, you're very comfortable with risk because you don't have a wife and children depending on you.
00:14:57 So having to come up with.
00:14:59 A Plan B.
00:15:03 You know, sometimes not necessary.
00:15:06 You're so focused on plan A and and you think to yourself, well, what's the worst thing that could happen?
00:15:11 You know, if I have to start all over again, it's not a big deal because you know, I'm not putting anyone on the streets.
00:15:18 I can.
00:15:18 I'll, I'll.
00:15:19 I'll always be.
00:15:20 Able to you know.
00:15:20 Fend for myself.
00:15:23 I'm never going to be homeless and you don't have other mouths to.
00:15:27 Feed so it's.
00:15:27 Not a big deal.
00:15:30 And that's kind of how Carl was thinking, but the problem was.
00:15:34 You know, he was starting to get to be 50.
00:15:36 He was close to 50 now.
00:15:39 You know, so he he worked as a, you know, a System Administrator here, tech support jobs there.
00:15:46 He couldn't even really get coding jobs anymore because.
00:15:48 A lot of those jobs.
00:15:50 We're starting to go overseas.
00:15:52 Plus he didn't have time to learn entirely new languages while trying to support himself, so he found himself without anything saved up for retirement, just doing odd jobs.
00:16:03 So here Carl was.
00:16:05 Just living paycheck to pay.
00:16:08 OK.
00:16:09 And you know, through some unfortunate circumstances and maybe some of those circumstances were brought on by choices he'd made.
00:16:18 But the fact of the matter is he really wasn't.
00:16:21 Any better off?
00:16:23 Than he was when he was 20.
00:16:25 You know, financially having a family now at 50.
00:16:30 You see, it was actually harder.
00:16:34 Then it would have been when he was 20, because when he was 20 he could reprioritize.
00:16:39 His life.
00:16:41 And maybe he would have saved up for retirement because now he would have people depending on him.
00:16:47 He would have that voice of reason in his life that I know women are not always the most rational beings, but.
00:16:56 They, I think forced men to.
00:16:58 Listen to their own.
00:17:00 Internal voice of reason.
00:17:01 Sometimes you know, I think of women a lot of times in a healthy relationship.
00:17:08 Is they act as a mirror.
00:17:12 That loves you.
00:17:15 A mirror.
00:17:17 That tells you the truth about yourself.
00:17:21 But not because it's trying.
00:17:23 To point out your flaws.
00:17:26 To tear you down.
00:17:28 But just to give you an accurate read.
00:17:32 On yourself?
00:17:34 And it softens the.
00:17:35 Blow as you know.
00:17:37 In a healthy relationship, they love you an interesting.
00:17:42 Perspective to have on yourself.
00:17:45 Would be if you could hire someone.
00:17:48 And you wouldn't.
00:17:49 Know when it was, because that would ruin it.
00:17:51 But if you could hire someone that just.
00:17:53 For like a week secretly.
00:17:57 Filmed all of your interactions with people.
00:18:00 And then, you know, gave it gave.
00:18:02 You this tape that you could watch so.
00:18:04 When you didn't know you were being filmed.
00:18:07 So you could.
00:18:08 Really get a read on like how you are.
00:18:11 You'll really get some.
00:18:13 I think it would give you a perspective that is very similar.
00:18:18 To the perspective you get.
00:18:20 When you have a woman in your life.
00:18:23 A competent woman that loves you.
00:18:26 In your life.
00:18:28 You kind of get that feedback.
00:18:30 But Carl then get that feedback.
00:18:33 He never planned for the future.
00:18:35 He never focused on the things that he.
00:18:37 Was falling behind on.
00:18:40 Because while those things were important to his future.
00:18:45 It just wasn't what he was focused on.
00:18:47 He was so focused like a laser beam.
00:18:50 I'm trying to make this company work.
00:18:54 Then he kind of just let the rest of his life.
00:18:57 Fall to the wayside.
00:18:59 So, because he didn't really plan for the future, he had just enough money to kind of get this.
00:19:07 Old house, which was actually OK with him.
00:19:09 He decided.
00:19:10 You know, he could still have.
00:19:13 A nice quiet life in the middle of nowhere.
00:19:18 With his hobbies and just like that, Carl became.
00:19:22 The male version.
00:19:25 Of a cat lady.
00:19:29 And he did have a good.
00:19:29 Time at first.
00:19:32 He worked on cars.
00:19:34 He fixed computers.
00:19:37 He watched every movie that he wanted to ever watch, and he watched a lot of **** again.
00:19:43 I'll explain that in a little bit.
00:19:45 But just like his cat lady counterpart without a partner in his life, some of his worst instincts spiral out of control.
00:19:54 Without that, that yin to your Yang without that balance.
00:19:58 A lot of these instincts and these behaviors that are healthy for a man to have because it balances out feminine traits in the absence of these feminine trait.
00:20:11 They kind of go off the rails, so Carl's overindulged in some of his worst.
00:20:17 Behaviors he gained a lot of.
00:20:19 Weight because.
00:20:22 As he got older, it was.
00:20:23 It's hard to get women anyway, and eventually he just gave up.
00:20:26 He wasn't trying to impress anyone, he wasn't trying to look good for anyone.
00:20:30 No one was there to cook.
00:20:31 For him, or even to just tell him to to watch his weight.
00:20:35 So he just got fatter and fatter because.
00:20:38 You know why?
00:20:38 Not he became diabetic and his health was just generally a mess because.
00:20:45 Anytime there was something wrong with him.
00:20:48 You know, his male instinct was just, you know, whatever. I'll tough it out. I'll be fine. There was also no one there to tell him to, to clean up all the car parts and the mountains of DVD's and mountains of *********** that began to stack up in his little lonely home. Carl slowly became a hoarder.
00:21:09 And I think I understand why Carl had such a profound.
00:21:14 Sense of loss.
00:21:17 All of the time, all of the time that he couldn't bear to lose even the most insignificant item in his life.
00:21:27 He had this intense.
00:21:31 Feeling that he had missed.
00:21:34 Some crucial.
00:21:36 Opportunity that he could never get back.
00:21:40 That now it was impossible for him to throw anything away.
00:21:45 And I mean anything.
00:21:46 You got to see this place because he just had this feeling that, you know, the moment he threw it away.
00:21:52 That he would he would need it the next day.
00:21:54 That's when that opportunity would come.
00:21:57 And and then he'd miss that too.
00:21:58 He'd miss that opportunity.
00:22:00 He would need that that tire or he would need that wrench or, you know, whatever.
00:22:05 If he got rid of it.
00:22:07 That's when he would.
00:22:08 Need it, you know.
00:22:09 And and Carl like.
00:22:10 I said he's not a hypothetical man. This is Carl's house.
00:22:14 OK, so I know what all you guys are thinking.
00:22:18 That you would never.
00:22:22 Yeah, this is really ******* scary.
00:22:25 He would never let things go this far.
00:22:29 Look, another box of corn.
00:22:32 That's good.
00:22:35 That's lots of boxes of **** right there.
00:22:38 And and look, you might not.
00:22:40 This is an extreme case, I would hope.
00:22:43 That you wouldn't.
00:22:44 There's so many boxes of **** in here.
00:22:45 It's ridiculous job.
00:22:48 Got some free bullets?
00:22:49 That's interesting.
00:22:51 Looks like 38 I have 38.
00:22:54 They're probably, oh, look at this.
00:22:58 ***** teenager.
00:23:02 There's **** everywhere in here.
00:23:05 This is all ****, you know, one thing I've noticed about clearing out this property and honestly, other properties I looked at that were in this bad shape.
00:23:16 Is they always had a lot of exercise equipment?
00:23:20 Just like really old.
00:23:23 Stored up exercise equipment and it just made me think, you know.
00:23:28 These are the people buying this crap and the most exercise they probably ever got was assembling.
00:23:36 The exercise equipment maybe using it once just to try it out because it was a new thing.
00:23:42 But then immediately.
00:23:45 Throwing it away or putting it in.
00:23:46 This case outside.
00:23:49 For it to rust away, I'm not going to haul.
00:23:51 It off now.
00:23:52 This is Carl's house. After three rider trucks.
00:23:58 Full of junk.
00:24:03 Was carted away and then on top of.
00:24:06 That 4 pickup trucks pulling a trailer.
00:24:11 Full of junk.
00:24:14 Hauled off more of his stuff.
00:24:17 This is after the house.
00:24:19 Has been cleaned.
00:24:19 Up I was talking to the neighbor today.
00:24:22 She saw me cleaning the place up and she told me.
00:24:25 You know.
00:24:27 We didn't see him for a.
00:24:28 While and we thought he was dead.
00:24:30 And we looked in the windows.
00:24:33 And there was stuff just piled up to the ceiling.
00:24:37 And it was so bad, even though we thought he might be dead inside there.
00:24:44 We didn't want to go in.
00:24:46 So we decided.
00:24:47 To give it a few weeks, turns out he wasn't dead.
00:24:49 That wasn't.
00:24:49 That wasn't when he died, but I mean, this place is it was just.
00:24:54 The home of a madman and eventually Carl.
00:24:59 Surrounded by.
00:25:01 The refuse.
00:25:03 Of his hobbies.
00:25:05 Car parts. Movies.
00:25:08 And lots of ***********.
00:25:16 And he left this world with this.
00:25:21 As his legacy.
00:25:24 A rundown house.
00:25:27 Full of trash, not even family, to come clean it up, a random stranger after.
00:25:34 Countless of other random strangers.
00:25:37 Rummage through and.
00:25:39 Drove off with the rest of his belongings, just sifting through his residue.
00:25:47 In disgust.
00:25:50 And justice, hauling it off to the dump.
00:25:53 By the truckload.
00:25:56 Mice and rats just ******* and shooting all over the floors of his empty house.
00:26:06 Is his legacy.
00:26:08 Now I know this isn't like most.
00:26:10 Of my videos.
00:26:11 But after going through Carla's house all day.
00:26:17 You know, just looking at this.
00:26:20 This disaster.
00:26:23 The decay.
00:26:28 And the stench.
00:26:32 And knowing that this is all that's left.
00:26:36 On the planet.
00:26:38 Of Carl.
00:26:44 I'm doing whatever I can.
00:26:47 To clean it off the ******* face of the planet and forget about it.
00:26:54 Forget Carl even existed.
00:26:58 As soon as possible.
00:27:00 And I guess I just wanted to give.
00:27:03 People a a window.
00:27:07 A glimpse.
00:27:09 Into the end of someone else's road.
00:27:12 Someone who had big dreams at one point.
00:27:18 I guess I kind of hope that.
00:27:20 Maybe Carla's life doesn't have to.
00:27:23 Be a complete waste.
00:27:27 Without ever knowing it.
00:27:30 Carl's legacy.
00:27:33 Can be helping.
00:27:34 Some of us.
00:27:40 For black pilled.
00:27:42 I'm Devin stack.
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